I'm so very tired as I type this. But it's a good tired. Tired from an awesome trip with my buddies to Belize*! Praise the Lord for the opportunity to unplug, be in a remote and beautiful place, and just enjoy hanging out with others (and by myself). As awesome as the trip was, it creates this strange clash within me...
Having not checked email or read the news since Saturday morning, I booted up my Mac last night to check in, and my immediate reaction was "Well, crap. Back to reality." I had a bunch of dumb emails; the situation in Gaza has deterioriated beyond belief; and I am reminded of the need to plow forward with the job search. With all of this, I find myself slipping back into carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders.
How can one find a balance between being informed and maintaining a healthy perspective? I know that even Jesus took time to be with friends, to eat, and to sleep. (Note: I don't have any trouble sleeping. It's my favorite activity.) But sometimes it's difficult for me to set aside my worries about the world and just enjoy things without feeling even a little bit guilty. I often find myself annoyed with others because I think that they don't care enough about big issues. I don't want to totally disengage and live in denial because it is this very behavior that I criticize in others. Yet I don't want to be constantly bummed out because of all that I know.
My prayer is that I would find that balance. That I will be able to continue to be an informed citizen, yet not one who is so engrossed in current events that it puts a damper on my attitude at all times. I want to care and to encourage others to do so as well. I want my interest to spark interest in others. And I want to also enjoy all that I have, living gratefully. Jesus, help me!
In other news... two months from tomorrow will be my last day at the office here. Wow.
*Photos to come.
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