This is it: I'm looking at my last three months here in Guatemala. It's the epitome of cliche, but time really has flown! As I think about the past 9 months, I recall many challenges, a few notably mistakes, many lessons learned, and countless positive memories and fun times. When I began the application process with IJM, my preference was to go to Bolivia, but I cannot imagine having been anywhere other than Guatemala. I hope that my time here will prove useful and helpful as I move forward. (I can already envision myself getting super-excited meeting Guatemalans back home.)
Even though I know that I will be sad to leave Guatemala, I want to do so with no regrets, so to speak. I want to overcome the fears and anxiety that keep me from diving in headfirst and giving my all each day. I want to work hard and leave an impression here. I want to feel as though I have made an impact. With God's help, I will.
While I want to be fully involved here, I am looking ahead, with my feet in Guatemala and my eyes looking towards life in the U.S. I do not like change, nor do I relish the uncertainty and anxiety that precede being able to make decisions about the future. A counselor I am corresponding with has given me some things to think about as I sort through that anxiety and those related fears. I want to be a fortune teller or to have full assurance that I will find a job and not flounder forever when I go home. But for now, I am going to do what I can and try to combat those insecurities.
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This morning, Mom and Dad headed back home after a week-long visit here. It was really great to show them this crazy, beautiful country. I think they were quite impressed, and I am grateful that they were able to come and experience it with me. (Photos to come!)
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