Such a great song by Usher. But seriously: I feel the need to do some confessing. (And what better outlet than a blog, right?) Last night I got so angry that I was ready to punch someone in the face! In all honesty, for me, the most difficult part of being here in Guatemala is not anything I deal with at the office or out in the field with clients. It's living with other people. (I have two roommates here.)
Before going to camp and then living with my parents for the few weeks before I moved here to Guatemala, I lived alone. And I loved it! I absolutely abhore sharing space with other people. I don't want to deal with other people's shit all the time. I like things to be clean and orderly, and it angers me when others don't have the same cleanliness/orderliness priorities. The truth is- I am selfish. I want things the way I want them, and I don't like making concessions for other people. Without a doubt, I have a "my way or the highway" attitude.
True, I have not yelled at anyone or thrown a fit, but the anger is still there. And that's not cool. I know that I should repent and work towards being more understanding and willing to be flexible. But, honestly, I don't want to. Maybe it makes me feel superior by holding others to my standard and then bashing them or getting angry when they don't match up. I don't know. Or maybe the simple truth is that I should just never live with other people. Whatever the case, right now I'm stuck between what I know I should do and what I would rather do, which is stay angry. And that's my confession.
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